Back to the computer

I’ve finished revising the printed portion of book - the first section. I’ve tried to give it some structure and rythm that it was missing desparately before. Much of that structure was in the form of written notes to myself. So I’ll have to do most of the hard work now. Ideas are easier to come up with than they are to make into reality.

I’ve lost some confidence in the project. Some of the things I wrote were absolute garbage and I’m not sure if I can really improve them. I know realize the importance of an editor. That will be coming up shortly.

I’m at a log jam of sorts. I don’t really know how to make the text noticably better. I’ve always struggled to make the vision a reality. The whole work just doesn’t sing yet, but maybe that’s the point of the process. I suppose, if I was a brilliant author, I would have been paid for it by now. [read: False hope in which I thought the book might actually make something of itself is being worn away by the increasing reality that the project will truly be a failure]